I’ve been pondering, for over a month now, about what word to focus on for the year. Constantly on the lookout for what I want this year to be about, taking my time hoping it will just jump out at me like it has in the past, but suffice it to say, it has alluded me and I haven’t been able to nail it down. In fact I feel so far away that I don’t even have a working list of words I’m picking from. I am empty.

I guess you could say I’m quite attached to my word CHOOSE. I never thought it would be as powerful as it has been for me. This past year has giving me a better understanding at just how in control I am of my life and that I have the power to do with it what I will. Regardless if I see life positive or negative it is my choosing, mine to design, and I only have me to blame.

“Life offers you two precious gifts—one is time, the other freedom of choice, the freedom to buy with your time what you will…yours is the freedom to choose ….Every day, every hour, every minute of your span of mortal years must sometime be accounted for. And it is in this life that you walk by faith and prove yourself able to choose good over evil, right over wrong,enduring happiness over mere amusement. And your eternal reward will be according to your choosing.” -Elder Richard L. Evans quoted by Elder D. Todd Christopherson

And so I sit hesitant, grateful for the insight “choose” has brought to me this year, grateful for what it has begun to help me see and change within myself, but know this hesitation is one I deal with every year. Each January I feel this longing to keep my word. The tablets ensure good intimacy with your 100mg viagra cost partner. In time of online name registration, you have to take a great care of the company that you are making an order for your online prescriptions, just make sure that you are purchasing from a reliable online cialis tabs 20mg pharmacy. Until 2013, the pharmaceutical giant did not allow others to sell a generic form of it. find this pharmacy store purchase generic viagra, such as Kamagra Tablets, contain identical active ingredients and have the same results. Use of narcotics, cialis discount pharmacy alcohol abuse and incessant cigarette smoking are causes of impotence. I know this sounds silly or maybe a little idiotic to those of you who don’t pick words, make resolutions, or have a focus, but to me it’s an important transition. I can honestly say that each year, each word has giving me something that I have needed. DO and LIVE got my moving again. GIVE helped me move outside of myself. And CHOOSE, well, choose showed me gifts I’ve had and helped me to see life’s possibilities. You see, I’ve felt attached to each word for different reasons and honestly, when it comes down to it, have never really been ready to move on. I’m realizing now, what a wise friend once told me, that we don’t necessarily need to move on from our word, we can build upon it and take it with us.

yes. exactly.

So while I’m giving myself permission to take my time and let my word come to me when I’m ready, I’m also giving myself permission to move on.

I know, I do seem to think about things too much and make life more complicated than it needs to be. I get on my own nerves and apologize if I’m doing the same to you. But I write about it because when I do I often find the answers I was looking for. When I started this post I had decided to keep choose (for a while anyway) and now feel that I can easily move past it–that I should. Perhaps I should look for antonyms to the word complicated and go with one of those…perhaps simplify.

hmmm…maybe.

xo