taking a break from me stuff. it hasn’t been easy, but something i need to do in order to make my life livable. i know that doesn’t seem to make sense as why live if you don’t get to do what makes you happy. ah…the beauty of life and the choices we make. i am beginning to realize there will be times in my life for me and times when i don’t really factor in. why has it taken me 6 years to figure out i don’t get me time.
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honestly i don’t know how anyone does it? i don’t know how we are suppose to do it? these organization plans are great for families where the kids are primarily at school or at least older, but no matter what i turn my back and megan has taken an entire bag of chips and smashed them into the floor. not literally, but there are crumbs following her every move. i just can’t keep up. i am not one of those people that can keep up, i know some of you can. too bad for me.
the insanity is a little much to handle at times, which is why my experiment in the first place. i am not sure how i feel about the result, but at least i did feel like a good mom and that’s something. but what about feeling like a good wife? or a good house keeper? or a good person?
if you can’t do it all what should you focus on?
i had the same kind of week. we turned the tv off and focused on us! it was a great week.
i realized i need to organize more to get the essentials done.
of course if you are going to pick one, you pick the family!!! you will never regret putting time into your kids.
I know just how you feel Amy. To answer you simply, my house is a lot messier these days than I would like it to be. I figure that is the least important, right? Bills must be paid, children have to be loved, played with and taken care of… so leave the mess. No one is coming to check and see how clean your house is. There are no ‘cleaning police’ who care if you’ve got the kitchen all cleaned up before you go to bed or head to your studio for the night. You’ll be a lot happier if you feel like you’re doing your job as a mom. I also believe that you MUST have time for yourself too, so schedule one evening a week for Adam to have the kids and you go out OR you go to your studio and he takes them out, whatever. You can do it. I often remind myself on the really crazy days that it won’t be like this forever! Thank goodness 🙂
This so perfectly describes my torment. I need a minute by minute of everyone else’s schedules. I either waste a lot of time somewhere or am incapable. I cannot do it all like some seem to be able to. I try to remember to put the kids and Jimmy first but that still gets hard when we have to come home to filth, I have a hard time being nice when things are out of control. Thanks for the post. Nice to know I am not the only one torn in so many directions.
I think you have articulated the single most difficult thing about motherhood. For me, anyway. It’s tempting to think that you should just spend all your time with your family, but if I do that, it leaves me feeling very drained. I have found I need time for myself every day. It might be just a little, it could be reading, creating, organizing… whatever I feel like. If I don’t get at least a little of that, I am running on empty and that’s not good for my family. So hard to find the right balance, though. And often my house is a mess because I am recharging my batteries instead of cleaning…