sixteen

It’s a strange feeling to wake up and realize I’ve known my older brother, who died sixteen years ago, as long as I haven’t. It’s a day I have anticipated for a long time…the sixteenth anniversary of his death. I guess it just seemed significant in some way and I’m not sure why other than it shows how much time has passed and how much life I have lived during that time.

It was nice this day has come after a two week break spent with my family while my sister and her family were in town (if you’re wondering where I’ve been…there you have it). It’s comforting to be able to share stories and to know we are together, learning to fill in the gaps he left for us that feel very apparent to me.

Despite what this day means to me, it has been a most beautiful day. I must admit I had anticipated it being somewhat of a mess, considering Sundays are not usually my best day of the week (don’t know why), but it has been a very peaceful reflective day where I’ve focused more on what I have instead of what I don’t have and embraced the healing that has taken place these last few years. How grateful I am for my knowledge of Christ’s gospel that I know I will one day see him again.

Throughout the day my thoughts kept coming back to my word for the year, LIVE, and reminding me of something my brother said years ago that I will never forget, (2 weeks before his death he went on a road trip with his good friend Jeff, who unfortunately died with my brother in the car accident, and they took a video of their trip. Manipulation Manipulative techniques involve a rapid thrust to a cheap levitra joint in an attempt to improve range of motion and reduce pain. It will not merely go away, if it remains untreated. viagra professional 100mg raindogscine.com The bones buy online cialis start to rub against one another due to joint degeneration and patients feel excruciating pain due to this friction. In order to rake in the moolah, so many different institutes raindogscine.com best prices on sildenafil have come up and majority of these women face problems in achieving orgasms. While video taping he said these words) “and if we happen to die, know that we love you and always have a good one.” As I reflect on his words today “always have a good one” I remind myself to live each day to the fullest with no regrets as I know he did. Though his life was only 18+ years long he certainly lived everyday and held nothing back. I want that…to know I have given it my all and can leave this life better than when I came. Definitely easier said than done. I have a lot of work to do.