“Ruin is a gift. Ruin is a way to transformation.” -Elizabeth Gilbert

I don’t remember reading that quote in Eat Love Pray, but when I saw the movie last night that line jumped out at me and I found myself thinking about it long after I went home. So it was no surprise to me in church today when all the talks had something to do with change. More specifically how there is “no growth without change”.

When the speaker said those words I looked over at Adam sitting on the stand and for the first time in while, felt hope. Adam and I have been feeling disconnected for awhile now. It started slowly enough, like all things do, and then one day you wake up and realize we are missing and I’m left to wonder where did we go? And how did we allow us to get here?

I thought it was a phase, in fact, I think we both did. We were comfortable being comfortable and didn’t really want to deal with the changes we were up against. Because really, we both know how much work and heartache goes into breaking down and building up. Herbs for curing leucorrhea: There are too pfizer viagra tablets many herbs in the nature that can treat the problem effectively. Be browse this store now india levitra Active Physically Physical activity protects against ED, even in men that are known for starting in their mid-life. Ill- effects of smoking viagra tabs cause dysfunction to most vital and major organs of the body and can even target havoc to oral health. As soon as the diagnosis is complete then http://secretworldchronicle.com/tag/blacksnake/ cialis for cheap suitable treatment can be started. The thing is we both knew we could no longer run away and the only way for us to grow and progress and continue on the path of closeness was to go head first into the belly of the beast and work on what we had both been struggling with.


[april | 2010]

Those conversations are never easy, but it is much easier when both parties are open to it, and we were. We found time today to talk and listen. To once again reconnect and begin to rebuild. It is never an over night fix and I’m the first one to admit talking never gets you any where, but it is our start and now we’re on our way to the growth and change we both know we needed.

This has been a hard year for me and I’m just now beginning to realize it’s because I’ve resisted the need to progress and move beyond the point I came to years ago. I’m changing. That’s a good thing. I repeat to myself, that’s a good thing.

xxox,
amy