Is anyone else spinning by the recent renewal of another year?

I’ve had a lot on my mind the last few days, thinking about this last year and what it has meant to me. It was a big year for me with a lot of growth opportunities that I am very grateful for. I grew in many areas and surprised myself tremendously by doing things I didn’t know I was capable of.

I was amazed to see as I focused on DO, my word for the year, just how one simple two letter word could make such an impact. I guess it’s true when something is in your heart and mind you start seeing it everywhere and for me it just happened to help put and keep me in action. It was the exact reason why I needed to choose DO, I really needed a jump start, and one of the reasons why I seriously considered keeping it for 2008, but I won’t and this why.

Once I realized how important choosing a word could be I prayerfully thought about what I need to work on this year. I have had a word in my mind the last few week, but told myself if I didn’t feel strongly about it I would definitely keep DO because it made such an impact. Then yesterday I got a package (Adam forgot to tell me the package came Monday) from my friend, Heidi, and in it enclosed the book Dance While You Can by Lance Wubbels (I can’t find it on amazon). It’s a book with gentle reminders to help you live life to the fullest with beautiful photos to match. As I went to flip through it the first page I came to was the introduction and this is what I found…

First I was dying to finish high school and start college.
And then I was dying to finish college and start working.
And then I was dying to marry and have children.
And then I was dying for my children to grow old enough so I could get back to my career.
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And now I am dying…and suddenly realized that I forgot to live.

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The moment I read these words I knew that my initial thought, the word I had been thinking about for a few weeks had been right all along.


Live.

It is a lot like do in many ways, which is why I had been holding on to it, but evokes more passion and love of life that I could ever get from DO. It implies letting go of fears and focusing on the good of my everyday. Being ok with my mistakes, learning from them, and moving on. It implies living in the present, at 31 with all it’s challenges. Enjoying my children at their current ages and not wishing that time away. Giving my Adam all of myself. Being grateful for the life I have and everything in it. It implies intentionally going about my day making it the best I can.

Adam once asked me, what is one thing you’re afraid of and the first thing that came to my mind was I wouldn’t live my life to the fullest, that I would die regretting how I lived. This year living shall be my focus and hopefully my focus every year after that. I don’t want life to just happen to me anymore. I want to take it by the reins and create a beautiful story that wasn’t there before. My story. A story of life, passion, happiness, and love.