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These thought all came when I was talking to my husband about me. He asked what i like about myself and sadly I could think of nothing. Well the only thing I thought of was I can “love” really well, and still I question that. But it is something. I can also pick up on things quickly and when i want to do something I usually can do it well, but sadly I am not feeling that way about life. I feel I am getting it all wrong.
hopefully day by day I can break out of this rut.
Amy, it makes me sad to think of you feeling this badly and not saying anything about it. You’re way too hard on yourself and apparently can’t see how great you really are. You ARE smart (who always has to read the game directions and then explain them to the rest of us?), you are amazingly talented (design, photography, cards, scrapbooks, cooking, sewing, etc. you seem to excel at everything you try). You are a great mother. I think you’re confusing the suffocated-feeling stage you’re going through with you’re ability as a mother. Every mother with little kids would say they share your feelings completely. It’s a matter of pace and perspective. You don’t have to be super mom every minute of every day. Motherhood is our challenge, our whole purpose at this time of our lives–that thought in itself is overwhelming, but really when you consider it that way it should be comforting because no one could be perfect at it. We do the best we can with what we’ve got and how we’re feeling each day. Your kids are so blessed to have you home with them to take care of them everyday. Don’t underestimate the security and comfort that gives them. Even if you’re frustrated and feel like you’re failing, ultimately you’re not because you ARE THERE listening to them, making them meals, picking up after them, and documenting their lives. No one else on the whole planet can do that for them as well as you can. So forgive yourself for whatever imperfections you “think” you see and stand taller because you’re suffering needlessly. You are stronger than you think and certainly smarter and more talented than you know. Trust me on this. Love, Jill