I know you will probably think I am crazy, but I am actually looking forward to it. I enjoying knowing that all is well. That I am OK. That my health is good.
You see I am sort of a hypochondriac. I can admit it. I have debated whether or not to keep a journal to document what sickness I have come up with for the day. I know it sounds crazy…well it is crazy, but the symtoms are so real. Plus it doesn’t help that you can read all about symptoms online at WebMD because it fuels the fire. Here is an article discussing that very thing.
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Anyway, I really see my problem in a light hearted manner and now Adam and I joke about it all the time. Like what aliment I encounter on any given night. Honestly, it is hard for me to know what to believe and not to believe. It’s almost like I don’t trust myself anymore. The only thing that seems to calm me down is prayer. If the Lord answers my prayer with peace and comfort I don’t worry. If not I usually will go to the doctor to get it checked out. Suffice to say, I have not gone to the doctors that much.
So this is why I am glad to go today. I am sure to have a good week with no aliments at all.
So this is just a check-up, not a visit to check on a mystery ailment? It’s good that you like to go. I’m the opposite. I’d have a lump or something and figure it would go away. I never sweat it. Crazy.
We are so much a like. this past year I have sworn that I had some form of cancer. I had the oddest pain, went to first doc nothing, pain came back, went to a second doc nothing, pain came back, made an appointment for the third doc, and had panic attacks for three weeks. This time they did find something wrong, sent me for an mri on my shoulder, and nothing. I worry so much that I will get sick, It also comes from childhood. I used to not have panic attacks until after my hospital stay with Maryn, now I can pray and still talk myself into that feeling I am having is him telling me something is wrong. I really need to work this one out, I am tired of worrying about it.
So I am like you, I love the doctors, I love that they never find anything, but at least I am in touch with my body.
Hi Amy. Thanks for visiting my blog. This appears to be the perfect time for me to visit your blog b/c I can COMPLETELY commiserate. This seems to be one of my biggest trials in life too. I am the same way, and I hate it. I recently had tremors inside and I immediately assumed that I was getting MS. I also have had symptoms that caused me to think I had cancer, diabetes, heart attacks, you name it. I worry about it way too much and my husband teases me about being the “worst case scenario” girl. I usually call one of my many nurse friends for comfort (I just happen to have a lot of friends that are nurses – maybe this is one of God’s ways of helping me). I don’t take much comfort until I’ve prayed about it though, and I have found that going to the Dr. to check it out helps so much. I recently blogged about a mystery pain I have had for 3 YEARS. As a hypochondriac, when you really have a legit symptom, it’s kinda scary. Getting tested though and finding out that it’s nothing life threatening (though still undiagnosed) has helped me to gain a little perspective. So like when I felt the tremors I realized that instead of being a terrible disease, it could be side effects of drinking too much Diet Coke. So anyhow, I am so glad to hear that I am not alone. I don’t want to live my life afraid of death either. It seems like such a waste of time, but it’s hard. THANK GOODNESS for prayer and blessings.
so my pregnancy books got taken away because I swore there was something wrong with me or the baby my entire pregnancy.
Hope all goes well at the doctor. IT oo hope it is just for a check up and not some bizarre ailment.
just a regular check up. all is good. I think. I mean I haven’t got the result back from my blood work. 🙂
I stress about things and look at WebMD all the time. I am seriously thinking about blocking that site or something. I don’t go to the doctor though unless it is something I have obsessed about for weeks on end. Glad things look okay so far. I hate waiting for test results…can’t they just have a quick lab there to check for all the really bad things while we wait???
Interesting post. I have enough illnesses to get through that I tend to just feel really grateful when I’m healthy. I try not to worry about things generally. I used to be a worrier growing up, but I’ve found I trained myself not to be! Glad you were able to get some peace of mind.