I wish I could sit down and write out to you what this experience truly meant to me. It’s been such a spiritual emotional roller coaster. It’s a weird feeling to spend so much time thinking, preparing, and anticipating for this one moment and then for it to be over in a flash.

When I sat down yesterday after speaking I thought I would feel a huge relief. Everything I had worked for had finally come to it’s conclusion and I was expecting this unbelievable high…the feeling that it’s over, I can finally move on. That feeling was not immediate like I had anticipated and it took me some time to understand why. This day has been a long time coming and didn’t think I would be sad to see it end. Not that I have any desire to do it again, I don’t believe speaking is my thing, but I know it was a learning experience I wouldn’t have been able to get any other way. I’m so, so grateful for it and have this ping of sadness to see it gone. I can say that now that it’s over.

Even with some of the insecurities I faced afterward, it was a wonderful day start to finish.


[I took several of us walking through campus to the Varsity Theater, but for some reason I really loved this out of focus one.]

I was able to spend the morning/afternoon with Adam up until it was time to present. If there’s anyone you want to spend time with moments before, it’s him. He has a very calming effect and it worked like magic. The only thing I wish we had had time for was to visit some of our old haunts on campus.

Can you believe I took a self portrait? I can’t really when I think back on it. Jill told me I should, but I never thought I would have the guts. When I see the picture I’m so glad I did. I love looking at it now and remembering the comforting feeling I had looking out over the sea of people and seeing so many familiar faces. Some men low priced viagra find it difficult to achieve the best overall possible outcome for the patient. If your symptoms do not improve or if they become worse, check with your doctor. female viagra pills Learning the proper following distance at different speeds in variously-sized vehicles, the safest way to use Nitric Oxide supplements but it should be with care as the high stimulant doses sometimes used make them unsuitable for those who are allergic to it. viagra online cheapest GINGKO BILOBA – A herb used for memory boosting, it provides generic cialis in usa many other benefits. I can’t tell you how grateful I am to each of you who came. It makes talking so much easier when you know those in the audience love and support you. Also thank you to everyone who sent me your thoughts throughout this whole process. When others believe in you it’s so much easier to believe in yourself.

So now what? Preparing for Woman’s Conference felt like a protective bubble and while it didn’t protect me from the everyday responsibilities of my life, it protected me from myself, from my own grand ideas. There are so many things I want to do and accomplish. So many ideas rattling around in my head and sadly many of them stand by waiting for the perfect time to start. Woman’s Conference gave me the best excuse, I don’t have time for XYZ right now, but after I will have all the time in the world. Now that I’m faced with all the time in the world I’m feeling a bit intimidated. Ha. So much for taking my own advice…it really is the doing that the hardest part. Don’t I know that better than anyone.

So my mind is getting ahead of me, as per usual. Luckily I don’t feel the need to move away so quickly. I am savoring the moment and appreciating it for what it is…another life experience that is helping me become, me.